F\u0131rt\u0131na yakla\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f
\n\u00d6yle dedi kom\u015fular
\nAst\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131 bir bir toplad\u0131m
\nBah\u00e7edeki sandalyeleri evin is kokulu
\nHi\u00e7 kullan\u0131lmayan kilerine b\u0131rakt\u0131m.
\nEvin kileri;
\nEski s\u0131radan an\u0131lar\u0131
\n\u00c7okta g\u00f6rmek istemediklerimi saklayan
\nDuyumsamak istemedi\u011fim o kokuyu bana duyuran
\nSinir bozucu ama kasvetli bir yerdi<\/p>\n

K\u00f6t\u00fc hislerime set \u00e7ekece\u011fim
\nHislere set \u00e7ekilebilir mi?
\nOysa
\nHisler ; dalgad\u0131r
\n\u00d6nce kendini belli eder
\nSonra seni yutar
\nVe ba\u015fkalar\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez k\u0131lar
\nBu ac\u0131yla bo\u011fuluyorum hissi gelmi\u015fken
\nDalga yava\u015f yava\u015f bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 yok etmek i\u00e7in eteklerini kald\u0131r\u0131r<\/p>\n

Mutfakta annemden kalma bula\u015f\u0131klar
\nS\u00fcrekli tepemde s\u00f6ylenip ev i\u015fini benden m\u00fchim k\u0131lan bula\u015f\u0131klar, parkeler, kap\u0131lar
\nKap\u0131lar ya da camlar
\nNi\u00e7in sileriz ki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp \u00f6lme ihtimalimizin bulundu\u011fu camlar\u0131
\nYeni nesil ev han\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n intihara te\u015febb\u00fcs \u015fekli bu olmal\u0131
\nHayat\u0131 bununla tehdit ediyorlar
\nYa da ev halk\u0131n\u0131
\nYine de ev i\u015fleri her \u015feyden m\u00fchim ve herkesten de\u011ferlidir<\/p>\n

Bula\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 y\u0131karken zihnimde kirli pasl\u0131 ne kalm\u0131\u015fsa onlar\u0131 da elden ge\u00e7iriyorum
\nHangi ili\u015fkime ne olmu\u015f?
\nSevgi benim de hakk\u0131m de\u011fil miymi\u015f?
\nHayat neden bu kadar zormu\u015f?
\nGibi sorular
\nhep
\nbir k\u0131s\u0131r taba\u011f\u0131nda
\nbir \u00e7ocu\u011fun
\nbir \u00e7atal\u0131
\nd\u00f6nd\u00fcrmesi gibi
\nd\u00f6ner durur<\/p>\n

Ve uyku o seti b\u00fct\u00fcn kuvvetiyle \u00e7ekmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken
\nKabuslar uyand\u0131r\u0131r beni
\nKorku filmlerindeki g\u00f6z\u00fc oyuk i\u011fren\u00e7 canavarlar
\nAcaba yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck bir bo\u015fluk olsayd\u0131
\n8 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bir \u00e7ocuk gibi oraya bakmaktan \u00e7ekinir miydim?
\nElbette \u00e7ekinirdim
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc annemin dedi\u011fine g\u00f6re bir \u00e7ocuktan daha \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum<\/p>\n

Ben bah\u00e7edeki \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131 toplay\u0131p silkelerken
\nBula\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 k\u00f6p\u00fcrterek y\u0131kay\u0131p
\nMakinedeki tabaklar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla yerine kald\u0131r\u0131rken
\nVe benden \u00e7ok \u00e7ekmi\u015f hal\u0131y\u0131
\nErkekler yatarken
\nS\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrken
\nPatates do\u011frarken
\nVe ger\u00e7eklerin aynal\u0131 denizinde bo\u011fulurken
\n\u0130\u00e7i ge\u00e7mi\u015f ge\u00e7-mi\u015f
\nPe\u015fimi b\u0131rakmazken
\nBazenleri \u00f6fke n\u00f6betleri ge\u00e7iririm
\nBazense bah\u00e7emin k\u00f6\u015fesine oturur
\nYeni demledi\u011fim kahvemi i\u00e7erim
\nT\u0131pk\u0131 bazen kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011finde kendimi korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi<\/p>\n

F\u0131rt\u0131na geldi mi?
\nYoksa kilerdeki kasvetli yoldan
\nBirka\u00e7 \u00e7er\u00e7eve
\nBirka\u00e7 an\u0131
\nBirka\u00e7 insan alarak
\n\u00c7ekip gitti mi ?
\nKom\u015fular\u0131m;
\nBir hasar yok ya ?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"